on te 11 march 2008 where te story begin end in 5 dec 2008.... love u always=)ytd gt work as it was public holiday after go chat wif huili we chat until 11 plus den i saw cheng zhang after awhile she shoo me faster go home!! haha i tink she wanted him to saw me n chase after me ba... bt in te end i was te one chase after him.... at first in my mind if 173 come first i will take with him n i will wait for him till he wan to patch back... silly me to let te bus decide... haha n 173 really come first instead of 963 so by te tim i wanted to go tere te bus go liao so i walk to te int... haha hope tat if i manage to catch up bt still cnt so asked him where is he to see whether we gt te fate ma.... in te end he called me say send me back when he send me until wdl i keep callin him to go.... te urge of cryin came back.... hai in te train we talked etc but te feeling is like we r still couple lo he will still punch my face n stomach... fake one.. i dunu frens will do tis or nt bt i noe tis is so different.... i rch home after sms huili i sms him coz i still v blur still v confuse!!! te truth is tat we break or tis is jus a tim for him to think thru i hope to get te ans i forced him to gif me te ans by 1st jan 2009 but he dun wan so i stop forcing wat does it mean by give up on tis love??? does it mean break up no chances of patching or break up thinkin thru might have chances asked him this n he call me to be normal i m normal if tere is no chances dun say tings like if i wan patch cn i come back.... i cn wait for u to think if u call me to wait i cn try to forget u if u call me to go... but when u call me to go where i was bout to let go u came back.... wats te meaning of tis??? as long as u tell me u dun love me tere is no chance of patching i will let go but i think my heart will still have u.... i love u so i choose not to force u bt te more i wont get te ans te more i wan to noe.... at first i tot as long as he is happy i m happy now te thinkin is still tere but te fear is tere oso i m scare of owning things as i scare of losing things.... it was nv easy to maintain hope u will say love me one day.....
if u rmb startin u told me nt to let go easily i tried all my best not to let go n nw u r te 1 hu is goin to let go everything u say only lo..... whether u r a gd man or nt its nt all up for u t decide!!! my mum asked me y i din ask him y he wan break off or is it me nt a gd gf.... i actually scare of te ans bt i noe i did my best so i wont ask y.... u r minimising ur pain maximising my pain.... u say u scare of get hurt i nv hurt u tis much lo.... y do all guys haf to do tis to me i really dun get it lo.... y do all guys i met all like tis??? is tere really no gd man le???
a wound will heal by tim a scar will nt heal n eventually left a experience i dun tink my heart cn take anymore of tis lo.... i at work borrow penknife tryin to cut my finger bt it is nt sharp enuf lo... wasted....
i dreamt about you and me9:22 AM.
