athis few days have been enjoying life haha... gt to start find jobs n occupy my days le haha... hmm on te first day of cny waited for those relatives to come then after awhile we went to pa's sis hse eat steamboat i at first was like so bored then when all my age de cousins sat down we actually chat alot but well all bout studies n bf coz all gals hahax... well te 4 of us birthdays was like july august sept n oct so we decided to celebrate for each other hahax... wonder will we really celebrate tat n te 1 which is on te oct said tat she doesnt wan any bf for tis 6 mths te july 1 laughed said impossible then we bet said te one hu lost haf to treat te others... hahax...

n tdy we went to other ppl hse n we actually sat tere awhile only... hmmm gt a big pimple on te middle of my nose sob... =.= so sad.... hmmm wonder any cure so ugly lo... hai.... then we took bus to amk uncle told us te wrong stop then we get down haf to walk v long worst thing is he told another lady te wrong info also she get down with us also haha... n she haf to walk a long way haha...

at grandma hse eat alot lo keep eating hai so many tins to eat cnt withstand haha.... keep eating n i will bcum fat in fact i m alr fat....

haha greet everyone first haha... happy cny... tmr is cny le... so happy hehe...

hmmm ytd i agree to be zy's stead coz i tot i could handle this n te moment i agreed my tears came down i dunu y... n i dun feel like talkin to him like te feeling is different... i tried but i can't bluf myself tis is definatly nt te tim....

haf u ever feel like this before?? u break up for a few months le u tot u cn forget everything n handle tis n start anew but when he waoo me for a v long tim n finally i tot i could use him to help me forget te past tot i could try to fall in love with him but when i accept him i m nt happy i m actually crying.... i feel so sour n tdy i said i cant maybe bcoz i m guilty maybe bcoz i still think of him n te promise i made ba... haha stubborn stupid me

一切过了太久
我们的十字路口
下一站是谁在等候
终点还是分开
你答应我的
我都记得
但是你却忘了你的承诺
谁都别再犯错
是我的固执让你难过
但是分手却也无法选择
我走了以后你要好好生活

ytd so scary scare me lo hai... in te afternoon someone called n told me tat i forgot to submit sumtin for te poly.... hai small thing only but me scare like hell dunu y... tot she goin tell me i cnt go in.. hahax... after tat call huili ask whether she gt receive any call ma... then she said no n i go on my comp n print te cca grades out... haha finally rest in peace hahax... help huili print also then went to nyp... at ard 3 plus ba.. take train then over 1 stop haha then take back to yck again haha... after submit then went to his hse coz ytd he called me n tell me sumtin.... but i forgot n then rmb ytd his mum should be at home so go see her ba haha she v cute de lo... at first i tot he din called me and tot tat i might be dreamin coz at tat tim i alr at lala land le.... then he told me hahax gt abit recall back le.... hahax... hmm then he so serious asked me can help him go draw 200 dollar to change 2 dollar note ma... then i said agreed.... when tere te bank close liao hai so suai.... then i alr draw le so tot of givin him back or deposit back ba.... i think he will get scolded lo... so i went 1 store by 1 store to ask so ps lo... think back y m i doin tis stupid lo hai nw i bcum v famous le... hai... mayb pay back ba dun wan to owe him anitin ba... hahax...

ytd luo gt online we chat but half way i gt so angry n frustrated so i say her alot guess i pity te jm ba.... mayb i feel tat we r alike ba... so i tell her put urself in his shoes y he always quarrel wif u?? u alr break with ur current bf tat mean u alr decide le ma isnt it?? n yet u still so undecisive chat wif him at late night... if u really love him tat much y dun u jus go back to him... if ur story is true then now u r jus forcing urself to be with jm not really love him liao lo... n pity him somemore... u said u dun wan hurt anyone but wat u doing now... r jus hurting jm only... u r nt hurtin pineapple lo... coz u told him u will be wif him de n he trust u he change himself for te better but u didn't try lo.... u r still living in te land where u r still wif pineapple n jm is only frens.... u cried jus bcoz u cnt chat wif pineapple but haf u tink wat he said to u ma?? he call u go n die leh... jus bcoz u cnt call him... is he even worth... mayb i dun haf te rights n i cnt even handle mine le still tell u wat t do... but i m nt inside tis situation so i see v clearly... u nt dun like jm u like him lo is jus tat u dunu him well n u wori alot u scare he is nt te 1 for u.... u might really like pineapple but then it may jus only bcoz u noe him well n u always saw him n u tink tat he is nt te right one for u... up to u ba... wateva u do dun hurt tem too long... i did a mistake once n i hate myself for doing tat... so dun go te same way...

ytd was so nice te 6 of us includin me went out we went to eat sakura at jurong east de science centre tere then its like buffet but tere no pork no lard so its much on te seafood n sushi side haha... so once in my life tim i tried te oyster.. well it taste nt bad but it taste weird to me as it is te first tim but overall nt bad la quite ok at least nt like kids tat tim eat le will vomit coz of te taste ba.... te choices tere nt much but we r very full lo haha... haven say wich 6!! martono jasmine huiling fufen huili n me haha... i order te sausage only martono keep laughin lo hai so sad... sausage only ma... all seafood cnt eat too much...

ytd 1 plus went to zhen yuan hse as i wanted to ask him sumtin then we say hao go downstair talk de then when i rch he say he go his hse... dot =.= then i jus go lo.. hmm then he close his hse door then i say open coz te wind big then he say go his rm nt stay outside then i went in he lock te door dot dot dot =.= haha he went to slp then i sit down see his things like explore like tat read his dairy wich is only 2 pages... hmmm but wateva he said is kind of touchin i wonder if te gf see will te gf still treat him tis way??? but i dun tink i will get a bf tat hit me although he promised...

while otw to mit huili goin rch le after tat sis say cnt find mummy n tcher wan see parents or guardians ....=.= so i went back half way like ard kranji or cck she called again say find dao liao then i haf to take train bck again wth.... n in te end mum was at fren hse hp low batt she dunu argh....


life is nth but full of jokes... once ppl told me we r born here to do our parts/show once te show end u will haf to go.. if tey wan u to die u will haf to... many of them r like those dramas... some r really gd some r gd but inside them r bad some r tey cant do u any harm... ppl r always like tat u cn nv noe whether he/she is gd or bad hai... even i thought i knew but in te end i actually dun te tin tat use to be have changed...

taylor swift (love story)

We were both young when I first saw you.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts:
I'm standing there on a balcony in summer air.

See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns.
See you make your way through the crowd
and say hello;

Little did I know
That you were Romeo; you were throwing pebbles,
And my daddy said, "Stay away from Juliet."
And I was crying on the staircase,
begging you, 'Please, don't go.'


And I said,"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew.
So close your eyes; escape this town for a little while.
'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said "Stay away from Juliet,"
But you were everything to me; I was begging you, 'Please, don't go,'

And I said,"Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Romeo save me; they're tryin' to tell me how to feel.
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid; we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Oh.

I got tired of waiting,
Wondering if you were ever comin' around.
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town.

And I said,"
Romeo save me - I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting for you but you never come.
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think-

He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said,
"Marry me, Juliet. you'll never have to be alone.
I love you and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress;
It's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'

Oh, oh.

We were both young when I first saw you...

so tired hmmm haven touch te comp so many days le... sob... ytd end wk went to play basketball with alvin n his cousins... haha play match so tiring then tdy aching lo... then tdy went to wk at 9 then end wk at 2.30 haha.... then buy many comics finally tdy is te last but worst thing is it didn't end hai so sad... but i really look forward to the book 22 tis comic is interestin although te person hu drew tis was nt as nice as those anime.. haha... but well te story is nice can liao haha...

read tis chinese comics te eng ver came out call "flunk punk rumble"... v funny...

hmmm my hands n leg start itchin again i guess is because of te sotong ba... dot dot...

hmmm tdy talked to those uncle actually they all quite gd de.. hmmm my aim is to earn at least 50 bucks each day but seems like impossible lei.. hai y is it so difficult??? guess i have to go search for other job liao haiyo...

i noe its bad to laugh at them but coz we gt nth to do so we get ourself entertain haha... but i still think that i m really bad so sorry that i laugh at u all.... hmm felt guilty.... =.=

fingers have been bleeding these days but tere is no feelings for it lei... guess i m use to it le ba... haha hopefully i will get use to everything now.. alvin always not goin to wk make me feel so like dun wan to wk any more lo... actually i dun wan say anitin la although te first day i noe tis job cnt earn money de... no basic n still need to share hai... felt so fool n get cheated lo hai..



haha out of a sudden wanted to write this haha think through n felt tat maybe since startin till now is like that de ba...

i found out this is not illusion neither my way of running away this is a wish a hope that i wanted it so much to come true... but te more i wished te more disappointed i am.... being a fool infront of anyone isn't fun neither it is wat i wan but doing it naturally n feel tat it is not wrong maybe te way of my thinkin make everyone or u frustrated so at here would like to say sorry n im gonna change guess for te better ba... wished that i dun haf to think tat much.... as u never wanted to hear my feelings... just wanted to rely on someone or even u as i never rely on anyone before... te feeling is great as i do nt haf to worry but when im awake i found out tat i have never rely on u or anybody at all its luck its fate its faith i depend on after all tis yrs n mths n days...

i tried to think of te future but i cnt c u in tere... guess this is it... brain told me tat i shouldnt think anymore... finally feelings for u is nt tat strong as last tim... i can even forget u for few days n weeks.. when i finally never turn my back n search for ur smell ur presence someone remind me... my mum my dad.... i thought tey will support me n try not to mention u again but i m wrong tey kept sayin n repeatin everyday everytim tey saw me... hai when will tey stop??? tey r makin me freak out... argh.... from sad to angry argh... jus so angry.... =.=

ina - fall (this is nice too...)


I gave you all your desired
All that you needed
Boy, I provided
I let you into my head
Into my bed
And that’s a privilege
I had your back at the answers You took the dollars
I took the chances
Defended, battled and fought
Cuz I really thought you loved me
I don't know where to start or where to stop
No, but I know I am done
I've had enough


So fall out of my hands
Out of my heart
And when you hit the ground
You’ll be sorry that I’m not around
I will watch you
while you fall out of your mind
Out of your fantasy
When you hit the wall
Think of me
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall


You said that you were the strong one
I was the girl
And I was the young one
I kept your feet on the ground
My head in the rounds I had you
You told me you were so grateful
I was with you
And I was so faithful
Stood by in all that you said
And all that you did
I loved you
I don’t know how to act or what to say
But I know I am good
I’ll be okay


And you fall out of my hands
Out of my heart
And when you hit the ground
You’ll be sorry that I’m not around
I will watch you
while you fall out of your mind
Out of your fantasy
When you hit the wall
Think of me
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall


So fall out of my hands
Out of my heart
And when you hit the ground
You’ll be sorry that I’m not around
I will watch you
while you fall out of your mind
Out of your fantasy
When you hit the wall
Think of me
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall
I’ll be on the top just watching you fall

ina i wanted you (very nice i love this song.... hehe =))


Lately I've been thinking about what I can do
I've been stressing to fall back in love with you
I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through
But I can't go on this way. I've got to stop it babe
You've been wonderful in all that you can be
But it hurts when you say that you understand me

So believe me.
I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I
I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how *damn* deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done. I just can't do this anymore
'Cuz we can't be mended, so let's stop pretending now
We've been walking around in circles for some time
And I think we should head for the finish line

So believe me.
I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I
I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how *damn* deep
I wanted you, I wanted youI, I.. I'm so sorry baby

But I, I.. I gotta pack up and leave
But I, I'll always remember how we came close..to being how I wanted to be
I wanted you baby
I wanted youI wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how *damn* deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

hai so sian so long nv update le... really busy with wk dun wan think so much le haha... wkin tdy n earned 60 usually jus 40 only tdy was super fast n earn so much last few days have to wk till 6 plus n earn 40 or 30 plus only but tdy me alone earn so much so surprise te supervisor also v surprise... he looked at te watch n shock haha... 100 cartons finished in 1 hr plus ba if i m nt wrong... wahahahax... winner.... =)

hmmm bought my comics 21 ep le so happi... =) yeah gt t chiong my comics hehe... hmmm was wondering when can i start read hehe.... haha... jus nw apply for poly n higher nitec online... so nervous lo... n te website like bitch lo... haf to refresh so many n still it doesnt wk then sis n mum keep tellin me stuff... make me cant concentrate n gt fed up... argh... gugu website... well lucky finally can apply lo if nt die ah.... tmr last day le... call so many ppl for help hai... thanks guys esp yong hong hasbullah n alvin.... haha so happi heart inside te stone drop on te floor liao haha...

wanted to plan for my future de.. if poly cnt go in then how go in higher nitec then hw etc... but in te end no conclusion sian... hai... wat to do... dunu wat to do to my life lei... tryin to plan but scare te plan fail... hai... nw wk sum more dun even interested in te studies animo... wat t do.. cert matters...

hai been searchin for ppl to wk wif me tot of find zhen yuan coz he no job ma... but his phone nv open call his hse te mother v funni lo ask me who then dunu who me... ask me gt smoke ma... hai n he nv call back shit... then ask songzhi gt c him ma he say no lei... hai where he go??? argh...

tdy look at my hands so many scar liao haha... tdy bu xiao xin penknife cut my finger then bleed then i was like so stupid lo shock then dunu wat to do... then in te end cont to wk... until 3 plus off wk mit rehana go nyp... coz i think i need to noe wat t bring n wat tey wan us to submit so... tag along haha found out need tis academic transcript dunu where to get tat... sian.... then still sick tdy whole day keep ha chiu... last tim is keep yawning... hai.... sianx.... =.=

guess tis is it haha...

If you love something, set it free. If it comes back, it was and always will be yours. If it never returns, it was never yours to begin with

hai ytd went to this job tat alvin recommed de.... hai so tough.... i came home n nv eat dinner then go slp after tat 10 plus wake up awhile then cont slp le... so tiring lo... hmmm... then when i wake up i gt fever stomach pain again n still ls lo... hai... when will this weird sickness heal fever ok la but ls n stomach pain so torturing... hmmm tdy overslept hai... so sad... then tdy wk until 3 plus only hehe... =) so hapi... so giddy wan go slp again le...

chinese:

我虽然不断的走向未来但是总是回头看在那一刻,
真的希望自己回到过去!
每一次当我回头,总是希望他会做同样的事...
我知道这是不可能的!!
但不知道为什么我有种感觉,
他也希望回到过去的时间，
这是我的幻觉吗，
或者是我不想面对事实的其中一个办法??

english:

although i moved on with my life but when te moment i turned my back te more i feel like going back to where we started... and everytime i do i hope that he will do the same thing as me but i noe it is impossible.... but don't know why i have this feeling that he also want to be back to where we were is this my imaginations or that i don't want to face the facts??

haha so boring hai.... was like sick ytd n tdy feel better but brain is like blank n empty dunu wat t say n forgot wat happen... tdy been slpin whole day haha so happy finally peacefully slp le n tey keep callin me to wake up n eat n ppl keep sms my phone... always on te tim when i was slpin or doin sumtin when i m so free nobody sms hai.... mornin wake up feel so cold n body so hot lo... went to take thermometer haha it is 38.2 degrees... hmmm at night ls 2 tim.... mum wake up too early no one to talk to come talk to me bout comp hai... wonder she noe wats te situation ma.... y is she like tat??? i really wonder... hmmm... otw to take my pay hai.... feel like vomitting lo... so stop at yew tee go toilet... half cnt tahan le use handicap toilet walou cnt close sibei gugu... then nth came out coz haven eat.... tat tim wear until like auntie but wat t do... c wrong tim go out too early so since stop at yew tee so go his hse... then go in his hse le eat 1 panadol... go slp haha... suddenly he come ask me y u come so early.... scare me tot wat happen... told him fever then come out early hai... then he go take ice n honey n weird medicine wa so ku lo...... drink until i wan ku lo... hai... haha happy event i go take pay then meet huili haha we go interview she go in i wait outside after tat we went to watch movie lady cop... de... quite funny de haha.... but te ending for te guy abit weird... after tat go take my jacket te fever come again... guess tis tim 38 plus also ba... coz tey whole body like lay awhile then te bed will hot like tat... then went in rest awhile he see me like v jialat call me slp awhile but so late lo... in te end at 9 plus i go home.... hai... thanks but abit weird hai... too rely on him le... so sad... nvm nw i haf become stronger nv feel like crying le... i believe slowly i will forget him n he will too... n of coz we wont b contactin each ote le ba.. i hope so .... if can gimme some motivations to move on ba.... =)

haha its a new yr hehe a new yr a new start hope everyone will be happy n healthy... pretty n handsome... wif confidence.... hope tat tis 2009 will be a gd start n a gd yr for everyone no matter u r a stranger to me or best frens to me.... i wish everyone haha...


ytd take pay but forgot to chop n sign the another piece argh so sotong so angry lo.... once in tat tim i hate myself so much y m i so sotong n others can be so clever hmmm..... i guess tere is sumtin wrong wif my brain lo.... hmmm wed happen a lot of tin until i v tired....
hmmm ytd went to huili n yl's fren bbq we saw fireworks it is so nice esp te purple n te blue ones... haha... went home ard 12 plus ba.... cz keep callin hai.... huili asked whether i will think or feel tat he wan patch back or wat ma... i said sumtim n tat sumtin he did sumtim make me confuse n irritated.... i nv feel so useless lo.... last tim is also like tat de ah y last tim i can go back to normal nw cnt... isit i change too much le... or i din really think before doing??? haha mus start to crack brain le if nt brain will shen cao.... rch wdl at 1 plus no more last bus le... lucky still got 912 rch te place walk home from tere v tired wan slp liao... mum called n asked me go buy guiness sturd n heniken.... dot.... then zhen yuan keep sms me said where you hai... ask me go mit him n stuff hai.... but nw is a brand new yr cz haf bcum a past so is te bad tin n shuai stuff.... haha mus b more clever liao....


saw tis blog tot it was quite nice..... so copy tis down wonder if it works...

http://hi.baidu.com/avril594/blog

heard this song from huili's blog v nice haha....

same script different cast.... te lyrics is so nice

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