when i notice...
i m already on the middle of a book
this book consist of memories.
each time
when i think of it more
it is closer to the ending
even though there are lots of episodes
lots of memories
lots of funny and unhappy scene
but still stories come with an ending
if it doesnt then it will coninue until there is
when i found out....
its near to the ending how come i feel happy??
but when it happens in real life...
i would wished that it never come
people asked why
why do you continue the stories afterall the ending are the same???
because i was hoping for a different ones
but whenever the ending comes
and i found out its the same
the disappointment they gave never fails
and everytime i hope and it fails
the disappointment is there
but still after everything
what i dont understand is
why the hope is still there
as if we already knew one day it will happen
and waiting for the day to come
but in the end i started to realise
i m just making a perfect lie
a fairytale to leave a good impression for him
to convince myself
to believe when there isnt
maybe its time to let go
to give up
to forget
to release.....
i dreamt about you and me11:11 AM.
2 days before tdy my puppy was playing wif us racing after tat mum accidentally kick her nose i tink coz she keeps licking her nose more than usual!! she looks like in great pain so i was kindda wori coz siao say if kick dog nose will die lo scare te hell out of me.... so i went to ask everyone to be confirm scare ltr she die!! pa came back ma ask him he sae true coz teir nose is te weakest n te bones tere is softer than other bones in teir body!! we tried gif her treats n she ate so i guess its ok lo lucky she ok if nt i will cry haha....
ytd went to listen to talks given by sab a company dunu gd ma aiyo!!! then rch hm quite late my family none of tem bring puppy down for a walk lo so after bathing i guess ard 11 le ba bring her down i call siao coz he miss call me!!! we chat haha its better chatting with lychee anyway haha.... haha.... always wan bully my dog lo hai.... keep telling him no he jux so hapi when he tink of hw to torture my dog argh!!!! after tat was bout to go hm saw xin kang haha then chat wif him it was fun la haha he v funny de!! he oso bk out haha...
hmmm tdy zy bk out dunu when will he call me n tell me hai!!! coz he call me to go find him wait for him book out lo hai no call no wait le la!! anyway i m kind of lazi tdy haha....
i dreamt about you and me10:07 AM.
i dreamt about you and me11:21 PM.
很痛苦，很累了，无法呼吸，舍不得失去这份爱情, 舍不得放下，心里好多谎言。
过去的世界已经结束了，原意承受痛苦，给你我的祝福。
能忘掉爱情的事，是很难做到的事。但是，不是不可能的事。
简单爱，至少痛没有那么深。
对不起. 我不配这份爱。能给你这份幸福的人不是我，不贪心任何东西，现在就很满足。
我的心里偷偷爱上了那个人，我知道我不能喜欢那个人了也没有爱人的权利。心乱了，勇敢地送
走幸福。
精神没了，心痛依然，好累了，但是回忆还在我心里，我好想休息了，希望能找到一个属于我的
世界, 谁也不能进来。
ACCESS DENIED
请原谅我的自私，因为我早已想通放弃这场爱情游戏。
我的排名100的输入 yea banzai "think this means 万岁" haha=)
i dreamt about you and me9:32 PM.
ytd bring puppy to cut hair omg cut until so short lo disappointed n regret to bring mum along when she sae she wanted to... all her fault la lucky puppy is a cute dog if nt bcoz of her hair all ruin liao lo.... sad....
wow tis song white horse is nice after seeing te mv u will think its nice too ba!!! for me is nice la coz its really sad lo... hai...
watch te shen qing mi ma te sentence tey used is nice te ending dunu wat te guy tryin to do maybe is singing using hand signal ba but dun get it la hai....
i dreamt about you and me4:43 PM.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
只要能好好爱着他哪怕只有一天也是得到
i dreamt about you and me11:44 AM.
ytd went out wif bubu although only at sch but te 2 of us keep laughin haha v fun even though we din go anywhere haha!!! we say bout camp stuff haha tat tim we call te moon face in our sch "dancer" haha coz she swing her hands as if she is dancing haha....
then we say bout uno haha camp tim we play uno we say mux nt slp on te last night so we use uno to make us awake all play until cnt liao all fall aslp half way haha!! haha... te 2nd day we play also play half way hungry we order mac haha.... first day nite me still watch anime coz tey say lights out 10 or 10.30 haha me still watchin haha... then 1st all energetic ma summo gt ghost movie leh we order mac then watch haha sec day everyone call me mac gal liao!! ... haha dennis is dong gua abu is bubu haha.... we 3 tere including me always chat de la v funi haha.... dennis always say me then i shoot him back then he shoot me back v funi de!!! haha... still rmb 1st day we went to assemble me stick to aida n miao wen.... after tat i saw dap(the moon face) haha she look so fierce lo haha rch tere we r assign to te same bunk but each rm 2 ppl only then we gt 7 students 1 female tcher so dap haf to stay wif tcher!! in te end we bcum frens we shift her to our rm la damn funi lo take te mattress so heavy te 2nd day aida oso shift to our rm hah.... in te end its 4 ppl in a rm!!
it was so fun lo!!! if i din quit mayb i will haf to go to te 2nd camp ask tem hw was te camp tey say nt as gd as te 1st haha tey say tey saw ghost too!!!
te story is like tat de!!!
miao n dap tgt in 1 rm... then night tim tey slp sum1 knock on teir door tot is te guys disturb so tey hack care then after tat te knock bcum louder n louder tey tot gals out tere will hear or stop tem but it cont so suddenly te sound stopped!! but tey heard some sound so tey walk to te door n saw a slip of paper tey read it says meet me at te beach by sum1 tey noe... tey nv tell me te name coz i dunu... so both of tem tot others will receive or heard te banging sound tey ask te otes whete tey gt receive ma or hear anitin tey all say no so tey tot its beta to check it out coz maybe tis guy gt tins to tell tem... when tey rch tere tey saw a figure so tey tot its him went tere n its gone tey went back n ask te guys any1 saw him tey said he din come at all....
i dreamt about you and me9:01 AM.
ytd watch hotel for dogs er its nice but abit boring ba i dunu for me watch once then i will wan watch again ba but its a nice show la although its boring but if u like dogs u will like tis show even its abit boring at te startin part..... went to watch wif papa shop he pay for te tickets make me so pai seh!! hai...
ytd contact back bubu hmm was so hapi lo thx to papa shop coz me n bubu alot of tins happen v fun haha wif him in balestier cn say is gd haha of coz papa shop also haha!!
te show is bout tis sis n bro teir parents die due to accident if i din rmb wrongly! after te incident tey bcum orphans! so tere is tis guy hu is volunteery wker..... he keep helpin tem to find new n gd parent within 1 year tey changed 5 parents te bro is v gd at inventin stuff!! te sis is his helping hand... so in order for tem to earn money to support temselves n teir dog which was use to be wif teir real parents but nw teir step parents dun like dogs so tey cnt bring him in!! te dog name friday haha.... tey earn money by taking hp boxes then tey put stones inside to haf te weight then they will use those mother use to wrap teir food tat plastic to wrap use dryer to blow so it will look like brand new!!! n trade in..... stories cont as te sis get to noe tis guy n slowly tey build up a team to rescue stray dogs!! n stories begin n ended with a gd ending.... go watch n u will noe!!
tdy goin meet bubu at ite haha hope he doesnt bcum fat!!
oya ytd quarrel wif lychee again!! i tot he will be using his frens phone so call tat num in te end his fren say he sick slp liao so i chat wif him awhile as i agree to call him ma!! so we chat wanted to noe whether wat type of person is lychee hmm siao de say he gd guy lo so ask zz haha me ask he ans correct ma!! then i ask him bout his ex coz we nt fren n i dunu him so ask sumtin tat cn cont te topic ma then lychee bcum v sensitive lo down tere kpkb say him ka his jiao wei still say wan go contact te gal zz like then jio her out ppl like de still wan do tis v bad lo... then he keep tellin me call him la so i think ok lo call him call him le dun wan ans suah u tink i care meh!! scold him alot then go slp liao lo hack care!!! argh f... tell him everything wat we say so tat he n his fren will be back n nt bcoz of me then bcum enemy i wil be guilty he tell me hu cares.... wtf lo dun care still down tere kpkb for wat... stupid.... say until him me always only haf anger no hapi 1 lo!! argh... siao de i think he v bored la call me den wan di siao me ba everytim lychee fail he will call n say fail liao leh haha...
i dreamt about you and me10:03 AM.
ytd went to imm to find martono n fufen haha coz ytd was his bdae haha so we eat long john we had lots of fun keep laughin haha so funi lo!! haha... then jeremy telling ghost story hmm kinda scari!! haha he was late but we r still laughin coz he is really funi he tryin to jux say lets go n tot he could skip it away haha!! fufen seems sad hmmm wonder wat happen mayb bcoz of jobs ba cheer up=)
before finding them i went to find ex to pass him stuff argh at night he called say cnt haf to redo angry!!! then siao de call me go find him in te end me otw le he say he haven rch diao i say nvm lo u go hm me go out le!!
tat day bring puppy down for a walk she shit at te carpark lot lo num 257 then when we goin back tat tim i saw ppl car tere hmmm wonder gt tio ma haha tdy wan go out wif papa shop for a movie te sec tim i go out alone wif guys for a movie still so nervous haha... feel so awkward but so long nv c him le haha.... i miss abu more hai "bubu" lost his contact hai regret so much!! hope 1 day i will get t see him!! haha=)
i dreamt about you and me12:12 PM.
fri went to take my tm pay then late so i wait tere ard 50 mins for te guy to come back hai... hmmm then late meet bf sori sori hai... then we went to watch movie all like v late so we decided to watch "coming soon" ghost movie omg te show is v te scary lo... hai but still nt too bad la jus tat we keep closing our eyes haha!! mini screen haha... goin end tat tim quite scary lo coz we knew te truth then te one who act as chaba v scary aiyo let te show scare until my leg bcum jelly lo haha!! went back home brain still haf te scene tat she dig te eyes out everytim refresh te scene will feel like want to vomit eeuk... hai... heard bf say tat night gt ghost movie wan watch de scare ltr i cnt slp lo hai.... btw we buy alot of potato chips haha so many till we cnt finish coz we concerntrate on closing our eyes too much no hand eat haha!!
hmmm then night tim lychee call me his fren snatch te phone n keep talkin to me haha tey v funny haha.... but dunu y talk to lychee will make me so angry lo!!! everytim he call me he nv talk nicely de if nt jiu cum find me quarrel lo argh i hate him!!! guess is fri wat happen le then his fren nv call le ba!!! i think is bcoz he scold him tats y ba!! fri went to find ex pass him cd on train jin en call me he heard me nex stop cck call me go find him at yew tee!! so qiao he stay at yew tee me goin yew tee haha!! so i sae ok lo coz anyway goin tere oso!! he stay nearby my ex only!! din tell lychee tat i went to find him coz tot tat he wouldnt wan to noe de haha!! anyway hu cares bout him.....
once again we quarrel jux nw le hai... really get sick n tired hai.....
tdy is martono bdae wonder later hw tey goin to celebrate for him haha!! tdy is zhen zhang bdae too haha same same!!
i dreamt about you and me11:49 AM.
tdy so sad puppy bring me to somewhere i dun wan go mummy told me sumtin i dun wan to hear myself let me think thru things tat i dun wan to!! think le out of a sudden tears jus flow out by itself w/o notice.. i think tat i m jux so fragile but act strong dun really feel like letting ppl noe but i dunu y jus feel like typing out!!!
mummy told me she plant all her hope on me then tdy she told my sis she cnt plant on me anymore le she will have to plant her hope on my sis haha y does she always do tis she always plant her hope on me then tell me tat she cnt n disappointed y?? out of a sudden i rmb one of my tcher did tat to me also i din call u to plant any of ur hopes on me is u all r doing tat im me i jus doin wat i should do n can do but u all jus take ur hope as n when u like!!
she told me tat day bring puppy down for a walk she said she saw te former owner of puppy then puppy really happy jus nw bring her for a walk she walk all te way to where she lived before.... haha mayb she wasnt mine in te first place so scare to lose her i had alr lose lots of tins le will u plx stay by my side n dun leave haha childish me... maybe retribution ba i snatch ex bf from a gal he like now i snatch a dog tat doesnt belong to me tats y tey r tryin to leave...
tmr takin pay le haha.... so tired n stress till i think anyhow ba.... life is really miserable haha...
i dreamt about you and me11:28 PM.
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i dreamt about you and me12:29 AM.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
深情密码电视原声带
庾澄庆-静静的
☆空气里躲着什么
有点浪漫的心动
我偷偷看你
你也偷偷看我
世界上多了什么
好像变得很不同
站在你身边
这一切都好宽阔
我还在等着你
静静的爱我
只要有你陪我
静静的就足够
你也在等着我
静静的温柔
就这样手牵手
静静的看着天空
心里面藏着什么
你只想要让我
懂原来我的梦也就是你的梦
纸条上写了什么我好想要听你说
让字字句句充满我们的笑容
永远要记得
那天彼此许下的承诺
瞬间点亮的火花
是我们的拥有
静静的手牵手
是最简单的梦
one of the soundtrack v nice!!! tis show 深情密码 is really nice though abit dilly dally but te front is quite nice n will make u wan to noe te ending!! so mayb its worth to watch ba!!!
it is talkin about a gal hu cant talk due to an accidents!! then she was sent to hosipital but in te hospital she get to know tis guy who is also in te hospital.... tey promised each ote on te 2006 christmas tey will come back again to meet each ote!!! when tey grew up do u tink tey will manage to meet or be tgt afterall its been so many yrs le!!
☆☆☆☆
i dreamt about you and me9:45 AM.
haha sat went to IT show wif bf n bf de bf haha... we went tere n we eat buffet hmmm we eat alot until i almost cnt walk haha... hmm tat was a hapi day too!!
sun grandma come then went to sheng song eat then go buy alot biscuit n choco haha hapi.... afternoon go play bb alone i think gt 1 hr or half an hour ba... haha it was fun so long nv play le... sob i lost all my jobs in 1 day tim sob.... hai sad any nice job cn intro... hmmm grandma went home le tey buy curry for dinner haha..... my mum call me cook veggie haha
veggie vs cailing wahaha once again another competition haha nt so scary tis tim!!
mum gave me order then me cook on my own w/o guide
instructions::
0. cut veggie end then cut it into half..
1. boil water
2. wait till boiled then add sesame oil ma?? forgot haha its call ma you in chinese n salt!!
3. put veggie in awhile later take out! then cai is done...
sauce!!
1. on fire
2. wait te pan hot
3. put oil n garlic till it become brown
4. put oyster sauce try taste then add water its done tadah...
my way of doing...
0. cut veggie end then cut it into half --- wrong coz i cut te end nv cut half sob
1. boil water ---- correct
2. wait till boiled then add sesame oil ma?? forgot haha its call ma you in chinese n salt!! --- correct
3. put veggie in awhile later take out! then cai is done... ---- correct
additional steps!! ---- boil hao veggie take out then cut half!! hai =.=!!
sauce
1. on fire --- correct
2. wait te pan hot ---- correct
3. put oil n garlic till it become brown ---- wrong put oil le put garlic suddenly it piat piat sound scare me then afew garlic drop on te floor then te garlic abit chao ta also hai...
4. put oyster sauce try taste then add water its done tadah... ---- correct...
finally te veggie is done haha... wonder it is edible ma... tried nice haha once again cailing win yeah ~~! my sis try say nice mum say nt bad still cn eat dad dun wan try he say he still dun wan die hai....
ytd nite pack my drawer so many useless stuff... saw te birthday gift given by ex bf felt so pain ba n hapi at te same tim rmb hw he gave me te gift i smile... carry on packing then found te bottle that is full of lucky stars i bought that coz i saw te wording n it is luminous... te word say tat it is a gift for others te one who buy to bless te otes who receive!! each stars have every heart u haf in it!!! hmmm its in chinese so translate dao like v funi but its real touching.... look into it found a panadol cover bcoz its in te bottle!!! flash back its given by ex bf when i sick he force me to eat de.... haha cont packing saw my calendar in 2008 life starts from feb....
journey begin....
on feb 25 in 2008 i watched Lchange te world wif him alone!! haha...
26 feb 08 watch kongfu dunk wif huili n her bf n ex bf.
28 feb 08 watch movie with him again but is wif otes but dunu watch wat movie le....
n more but i guess he wont rmb ba haha
i dreamt about you and me11:40 AM.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
last sat went out wif bf and jeremy to imm to find fufen and martono hu is wkin we went to find them and eat haha... we eat subway me eat chicken teriyaki 12" wow nv expect tat it will be tat many see my uncle eat like little only lei hai... lucky bf help me eat if nt dunu hw haha thx bf... btw latest entries gt "bf" mean huili nt new bf!! haha.... we keep laughing tat day it was so fun lo everything is so perfect tat day!! we buy ps3 controller for martono haha... martono tat day wk morning shift so we went hm tgt haha.. on te way hm we meet bf's real bf to play bowling so me bf, bf de bf n martono we 4 ppl play haha... in te end i lost hai sad sob... i gt 203 bf 230 martono 250 then bf de bf er i forgt liao i think 243 ba no idea haha tat day quite late go hm de haha... after tat i wif martono go hm tgt... i went to his blk to get comics "dear boys" haha so big but i think it will be damn nice haha.....
sun we went to sibeilo the temple tere bai bai wif grandma grandpa uncle parents n sis bro!!! haha we go eat then go pray after tat go OG walk walk walk le ah gong go hm first then pa bring us to sheng song go buy thing!! hai... so many things... go hm like zombie liao so tired!!
monday went to nyp appeal hai din get in so sad!! rainin atw hai... so din manage to go to np haha... so we go westmall coz gt bus go tere haha then we go play arcade haha i gt high score for tou lan ji!!! 325 or 316 i noe is 300 plus but forgt wat liao tdy hand so pain cnt play well haha so gt lesser!! tdy go np appeal then go westmall once again gt bus go tere haha... hai bf sori ah hp low batt lo hai... make u wake up so early!! sorii... rch le we decided to watch movie haha we watch marley n me haha tis show is super nice haha... we watch 2.35pm de!!! we rch tere at 12.56 ba!! i watch le gt cry hai so sad!! u go watch u will understand before tat we eat alot lo!! we eat sushi then we go buy chocolates then we go buy kfc 2.90 meal to te cinema haha eat alot horx it is so fun but so expensive hai nvm long long tim do tis once haha....!!!
after tat she gt update stuff we walk to her hse then we chit chat its been so long tat we chat le... haha after tat we do sumtin bad but nt too bad she noe de haha!!! then me chase te bus!! din expect tat i will chase dao read comic atw haha!! goin rch liao saw my bus take newspaper hm see puppy nt in call my mum she bring her to ote ppl hse to mate tem tgt!! i dunu is tat te correct word anyway is to let tem haf babies i think u all noe ba hai... i was so shock for words!! hmmm her body gt te dog smell smellismelli!! went hm bathe her then nw here m i blogging haha!!!! guess tis is it!!!
when u dun haf u will wan
when u lose it u then will cherish
when hes nt caring u felt leftout
when he care too much u felt irritating
when hes wif u u try to let go
when he said dun go u tot tere will b tmr
when he said hes leaving u dun believe
when hes gone u felt pain
when u regret its all too late
when u try to say dun go he said he cant
when u want to say u love him hes alr tat far
when u try to get him back hes not tere anymore
i watch te show le i felt so sad lo te most pain i tink is in te guy ba bcoz he see hw his dog put to slp so he will feel more pain ba!!!
i dreamt about you and me9:22 PM.
haha tdy go tm with bf then was like wanted to go escape theme park de!! but its closed hai so sad... haha in te end we decided to watch movie take train saw dave one of the colleague haha so we ask him wan go ma he say ok lo haha.... haha so te 3 of us go tgt haha... we go to plaza sing coz dave tot we r goin to te cinema above in te end its nt haha so we walk to cathay but te timin tere is too late for us so we walk back to te ps coz te timin quite ok but in te end we think that its too rush so change plan again go play basketball then we went to ps de arcade play oulan ji haha we spend 5 bucks each my ball keep flyin ard lo haha.... hai still i cnt win over tere then we played 5 times!! till my hand aches aiyo... but ok de haha.. dave was like super power lo... keep scoring till like so fake but its real =.=!! in te end we went to another arcade to play te same game again haha... tis tim everybody score is nt tat gd as so tired liao haha... we buy sometin to eat before goin tere i buy takoyaki ham &cheese bf buy cheesy curry chicken haha then dave buy like tart de shape but i dunu wats tat call haha...
after we fen shou i n bf take train n bf wait for her bf at tiong bahru haha we go eat tgt hai... so hapi tdy long tim nv go out wif bf le... miss her lots finally saw her she really cute neh... we took some photos free then upload haha....
i really started to hate guys le!!! hai i think i will bcum les 1 day de... tey keep forcing till i really wan to change num!! hai i dunu wat t tell tem but all i cn say is my patient has a limit dun exceed it.... ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff............ feel like shutting fuc* la.........ffffffffffffffffffffffffffff................ffffffffffffffff..................fffffffffffffffffffffff......................fffffffffff
worse come to worse i cnt get into poly i haf been really suai le jus hope my luck will come back to me... dun make me lose anitin pls............. i alr lost one not another........ haha break 3 months wif him le haha suddenly heart suan suan de haha... anyway its a hapi day tdy!!
i dreamt about you and me10:34 PM.
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
jus nw wanted to go toilet in te end saw xiao qiang thinkin of dun wan go liao tahan but think think cnt lei then had a fight with te gaga
cailing VS xQ
plan A
i tot of takin pesticide but dunu put where so saw a shoe wan take n hit but miss te xq hide cnt find in te end tot maybe dettol will kill it in te end unsuccessful
plan B
use water open to te max... tot it will scare n die soon... but it didnt.... so i hide behind te door keep use te water splash it then i go open te cover keep splash here n tere till it finally go in!!
tadah tadah cailing won...
the winner is cailing...
but still v scary!!
i dreamt about you and me11:59 PM.
walk in te rain for te whole day on ytd de ytd... me so stress been thinkin thru lots lots... so confuse n being bothered by ppl... hate tem lots!!
wan to sincerely apologise for typing her story out n talk crap... i jus wan to see any nice advice surprisingly only qi ans haha... i really poke myself in her shoe too much i was trying to help her trying to gif her advice tryin to make her angry so she cn think of her own feelings but in te end i found out i m jus a busybody shes fine alone... so i guess im te one hu is crazy ba... really sori...
all wet while walkin in te rain... ppl mus b thinkin im crazy.... me so tired le dun feel like caring anitin or i jus wanted peaceful life jus tat hope ppl like i jus knew or ppl i dunu cn go off....
been wkin almost like everyday hai.... maybe is bcoz of tis then like crazy le ba...
tdy bring puppy down for a walk scare ltr rain hai... haha then she shit n wee wee haha so hapi gd gal... love ya....
tmr take pay le haha... so hapi... guess i n bf will be goin to play whole day haha....
i dreamt about you and me11:17 PM.
haha ytd big rain walk in te rain till all wet haha ppl mux b tinkin i m crazy haha... but tink thru alot felt so light i think i will be sick soon ba haha
i dreamt about you and me8:46 PM.
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