this morning my mum said me cheap coz i always go my bf hse seriously i dont see tere is any wrong!!! we r not commiting crime eating drugs.... i m jus trying to get some warmth.... he is serving ns mon to thurs i cant c him sat sun i gt to work tere is only fri he bk out ard 7 i can only chat wif him tok to him see him 3-4 hrs nia n i jus want to spend tat tim wif him she said me cheap he serve ns i go find him being considerate i was cheap would ever a mother scold teir daughter tis way?? i really wonder!!! if he come to my hse we wouldnt have tim to chat u would b bugging him my bro would be bugging him tat 3-4 hrs left would have gone to waste... im never gd enuf m i?? i tried to b a daughter a gd one but wat i get was scolding scolding scolding if u were a gd mother u wouldnt wan to leave an impression which me n my sis would ever want!!! after chatting wif my sis all we cn think bout r ur bad tere is no gd ones at all!!! u nt enuf slp is our fault u cn b tired we cant do u noe tat i was v tired having my pe when my period come go home still have to tch maths wash plates bathe eat wat u do?? u sat tere smoking wtf... i dun even feel like goin hm each n every day... tdy i went to buy te thing u call me to buy i forgot to bring it home although i v forgetful but i did manage to rmb u wan tat!!! u scolded me y dun u jus forget e.tin.... how i wish to... tis home which i manage to tolerate have come to a stage where te emptiness of it have fill up.... i m jus searching for te love tat u all couldnt spare... i hate to go out with u all esp when tere is my dad in... u all look like family but i always look like tat outsider or stranger standing beside.... u always hold ahmei hand papa always hold weiwei n xinyi will stand beside n i always alone at te back when i tok to u all no one response u all always act infront of my frens tat we r v close but in fact we r one sea away.... maybe u shouldnt bring me home at te first place im not a maid if u think carefully im ur daughter if u ever rmb me.... since p6 i beg u dun send my dog away after tat i always cry alone i nv cry infront of u anymore i believe u nv see me cry when i cry u nv comfort me but if its xinyi or ahmei u will.... so i told myself nv cry infront of te otes even when i brk wif cz i nv shed a tear infront of u infront of anyone.... i cry alone in te dark in te midnight...... i do u all proud but wat i get was cheap.... i tried so hard to ignore u as i dun wan to quarrel with u but it seems like u haven discover tat ur actions have irritated me.... u said u wanted to keep te small puppies but then on te call u said u wan to send it away i already noe tat u have tis mindset so i said anitin.... even my tears already goin to flow out.... i bear wif it!!! guess u wouldnt noe actually i dun need any of ur love.... coz i already found out how to ease my pain... but i would rather prevent than get hurt.... on te day i sent chocolate off i was cryin in teir hse lookin outside i bet no one no one saw it i hope it doesnt although we jus get to noe each ote but i believe i failed to be an owner unable to protect ur child was my wrong nt even te last 2 im sorry...
i dreamt about you and me12:53 AM.
Monday, June 22, 2009
hai sian i think i have lost the will to work v sian lo work n work n work all those ppl hu work teir whole lifetimes sure already sick n tired of it le hai.... hmm mayb bcoz sales nt good ba hai... 0 sales lo!!! before pc show then pc show after pc show is like tat de hai... hope after this week will be better ba.... holiday start liao i dunu wat to do lo so boring dunu gt volleyball training ma hai... i hope have lo if not i will be v sian again argh goin crazy in no tim!!!!!
btw anyone have nice songs i m getting bored of my songs le... movies also can as long i can waste my tim there or jobs??
i dreamt about you and me9:49 AM.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
tis sch sux argh holiday le yet we have to come back for extra lesson f..... argh... monday tournament really gave me a brand new experience as i have never join matches before!!! haha although scary but fun haha =) hmmm i didnt expect te last match i will win haha... but te orange shirt is really power haha... hope to fight her again...
today damn busy hmm doin maths tmr is from 9-12 damn long la then still gt ei(p) argh tat wolf class again hai... after maths went for break... wei wei lost his both phone damn suai la we went to lots of places to find but still cant find hai wish he cn find it soon!!!
i dreamt about you and me9:52 PM.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
was playing tournament match on mon 3win 3 lose haha...
When our time is up, When our lives are done, Will we say we've had our fun? Will we make a mark, This time. Will we always say we tried. Standing on the rooftops, Everybody scream your heart out.
i dreamt about you and me11:22 PM.
Tuesday, June 09, 2009
tdy mood damn bad oso dunu y hai... get so irritated so easily argh....
tis morning on te way to sch goin last stop liao then before last stop an aunty board on then she keep nagging tat young ppl dun gif seats then i saw it i was like laughin la damn funny lo then she keep stare at me haha... funny =) i like to see ppl angry face tis days!!! dangerous haha... hmm i like to make a witch in our class angry by gettin close to a guy she will b damn angry la... haha i dun like her anyway but its fun haha she really look like a witch afterall!!!
haha tdy lesson end early cool haha... love it me n bf go hm tgt quite early haha i take bus to sheng shong to buy my sweet choco so quite late rch hm!!! rch hm le no 1 at hm!!! haha tot of cleaning up te hse coz c my lao ma like v busy so decided to help her out c sun bery hot then i put te clothes out so dry faster later cn fold no need wait for tmr!!! then i cook egg eat!!! mop te floor then clear my dog newspaper bring her down for a walk then clean her body.. she rch hm i tot she will like b happy hu noes im jus make a fool out of myself she rch hm start scoldin me w/o any reasons.... scold me for putting te clothes out jus bcoz tere is one at te far corner she does tat too hw come she nt scoldin herself?? hw i noe she dun like put tere i dun always help her put out clothes de hw i noe?? she saw te egg ask her wan eat ma she start sayin im a useless child dun even understand y... then i go bathe she start scolding again dunu scold wat if i noe she will be tat bad i wouldnt wan to b hm early!!! argh suai... hmm bathe finish she tell me teach my sis maths argh im nt a tcher lo!!! wat i teach might not b right argh i hate teaching lo... coz i dun haf patience dunu hw to die... then my little bro keep disturbing me everyone screamin tis hse is no peace de lo..... hai.... hope i could die faster car accident all kinds of ting i dun mind!!!! tired of living alr!!!
argh....
i dreamt about you and me5:54 PM.
on the last day of my grandma bro funeral we went to mandai to burn te coffin... i cried almost te whole day saw my grandma emotionless walk to te coffin to see him te last tim i believe she cant control anymore.... she shout and cry i dunu how to drag her away so i cried wif her although i told myself to be strong nt to cry but then i cried eventually!!! we rch mandai then tere r lots of procedure first walk to a place like church but nt!!! so we sat down waiting for te ceremony to start!!! while waiting everyone quarrel!!! coz te person incharge do nt allow te person hu past away wife to send him to his last journey so his son is damn angry!!! in te end te incharge agree!!! cool.... hmm if me i tink i would fight back oso!!! second place tat we went is where we have to see te coffin to a room then we must call out to him say go back to your house dont stay here at tis moment i really cry la.... so sad lo... dunu y..... hai.... my tears kept flowin when te bus take us tere already then at te last send him off de i cry also hmm... all ended le hope he really happy n relieve from pain may te god bless him as he is really a gd father husband brother person!!!
on friday was te last sec day tot of stay overnight over tere!!! hmm but tink tat mum will say cnt n indeed she say cnt!!! otw tere lao da take train wif me.... haha... we went to watch night at the museum2 damn funny la laughin all te way dunu y tat day after watch finish mood damn bad lo!!! mayb bcoz too tired , mum keep calling n i tot i told her alr ba so a bit frustrated haha... dunno lei hai sorry huh this few days always show attitude!!! especially to bf (huili) hope you dun mind i guess i need more slp ba... sori sori....
hai back to square 1 again back to i always late angry tot i manage to be on tim!!! hai.... sun supposingly go find bf de!!! but in te end bf num 2 say wait for him wait liao he say dun wan go wtf lo... waste my tim in te end cnt go find bf!!! shit.... hai after sending bf2 off tot of goin to find her then send her home chat chat awhile then go hm in te end lao pa call me send him thing diao.... y so many tin to do on tat day?? restrict me frm finding her sian... tot i can rush tere in tim bt turn out nt enuf tim!!! hai..... once again sori sori!!!
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