this morning my mum said me cheap coz i always go my bf hse seriously i dont see tere is any wrong!!! we r not commiting crime eating drugs.... i m jus trying to get some warmth.... he is serving ns mon to thurs i cant c him sat sun i gt to work tere is only fri he bk out ard 7 i can only chat wif him tok to him see him 3-4 hrs nia n i jus want to spend tat tim wif him she said me cheap he serve ns i go find him being considerate i was cheap would ever a mother scold teir daughter tis way?? i really wonder!!! if he come to my hse we wouldnt have tim to chat u would b bugging him my bro would be bugging him tat 3-4 hrs left would have gone to waste... im never gd enuf m i?? i tried to b a daughter a gd one but wat i get was scolding scolding scolding if u were a gd mother u wouldnt wan to leave an impression which me n my sis would ever want!!! after chatting wif my sis all we cn think bout r ur bad tere is no gd ones at all!!! u nt enuf slp is our fault u cn b tired we cant do u noe tat i was v tired having my pe when my period come go home still have to tch maths wash plates bathe eat wat u do?? u sat tere smoking wtf... i dun even feel like goin hm each n every day... tdy i went to buy te thing u call me to buy i forgot to bring it home although i v forgetful but i did manage to rmb u wan tat!!! u scolded me y dun u jus forget e.tin.... how i wish to... tis home which i manage to tolerate have come to a stage where te emptiness of it have fill up.... i m jus searching for te love tat u all couldnt spare... i hate to go out with u all esp when tere is my dad in... u all look like family but i always look like tat outsider or stranger standing beside.... u always hold ahmei hand papa always hold weiwei n xinyi will stand beside n i always alone at te back when i tok to u all no one response u all always act infront of my frens tat we r v close but in fact we r one sea away.... maybe u shouldnt bring me home at te first place im not a maid if u think carefully im ur daughter if u ever rmb me.... since p6 i beg u dun send my dog away after tat i always cry alone i nv cry infront of u anymore i believe u nv see me cry when i cry u nv comfort me but if its xinyi or ahmei u will.... so i told myself nv cry infront of te otes even when i brk wif cz i nv shed a tear infront of u infront of anyone.... i cry alone in te dark in te midnight...... i do u all proud but wat i get was cheap.... i tried so hard to ignore u as i dun wan to quarrel with u but it seems like u haven discover tat ur actions have irritated me.... u said u wanted to keep te small puppies but then on te call u said u wan to send it away i already noe tat u have tis mindset so i said anitin.... even my tears already goin to flow out.... i bear wif it!!! guess u wouldnt noe actually i dun need any of ur love.... coz i already found out how to ease my pain... but i would rather prevent than get hurt.... on te day i sent chocolate off i was cryin in teir hse lookin outside i bet no one no one saw it i hope it doesnt although we jus get to noe each ote but i believe i failed to be an owner unable to protect ur child was my wrong nt even te last 2 im sorry...
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