do u really believe there is fate i think this is all not fate lo its just that we r destine to meet then
we r suppose to meet because all this are jus a game that the ruler set and where the chess should go all of this is already settle no changes no chances of mending maybe meeting him is just a stone to step so i could go further.... when the game ends its where i should belong who i should meet and stay le tats y theres no point of waiting no point of finding the only way human never know the next step only the one who set the rule knows!!! maybe i wouldnt have a lover as i might die early or maybe i will be alone till i die... u will never know....
thanks for your advice but i think i m too stubborn to even believe in there is next one... guess i was still trying to protect myself from being hurt afterall im so different!! wat i went through is enuf.... maybe now u r feeling happy or sad or confused but when u really fall in love with that guy u r having now and he is going to leave u for good or maybe he is different or u feel that he wans to leave u u will feel paranoid, afraid, possesive and the fear will come all at once and
if he did leave u!!!! then maybe one day me asking you with the same problems again the advice would be different and it will be all negative stuff.... i believe by then u will be sick n tired of all this!!! haha but i hope that day wouldn't come coz im not really that dumb to fall for the same thing twice and i wouldn't hope u will break up with him if he was meant for u and u r happy with him... if my relationship doesn't work out i will leave him for good... not having anymore bf even there is he must be the one love me and i will not fall for him even i do i will not show it out!!! haha.... my new plans isn't it great??
er these are wat i gonna say in te responses but i think its enuf to write an entry so haha... read from here k!!!
i dreamt about you and me11:33 PM.
love is like a bubble,
not every bubble u blew out is a good one.
there are one that you just blew and it burst,
there are one that you blew that can only last awhile
but there aren't any that can last.... forever.
so people keep blowing and trying to maintain it at the same time.
sometimes,
we do know the ending.
but in life
we just want to keep trying,
remembering,
without all this,
life isn't life.
memories are there for a purpose.
if not life would be just black and white,
with no colours entertaining you.
i dreamt about you and me11:04 PM.
tears just keep flowing this few days!!! everyday i reach home i m being scold for nothing dad is giving mission impossible things for me to handle!!! bf jus dun gif a damn....
went to find him today i knew he would be slpin no point forcing him to come when he doesnt even wake up early.... i tot he wont be going out i went tere awhile he say he going play basketball!! i make the effort to go but u jus dun gif a damn i wonder y m i doing all this!!! when u dun see it dun even care.... saw his msg tere is this gal hu always msg him said her grandma is having an operation he care for him when i said im in hospital my mum scold me y cnt u act as a fren a bf watever jus like wat u did to her call me cheer up dun worry jia you te only response i get is tis is ur hse problem not mine.... i needed u te most u wasnt tere i noe u haf ur own reasons but when u needed me te most i think out of 10 8 or 9 i was tere ba but when i m in trouble u always not tere.... rch home tot maybe bro is sick mum will be damn tired rch home help my mum sweep wash plate cook stuff for my dog to eat te moment she wake up i straight get scolded coz gif too much rice coz basin haven wipe y didnt wake her up to cook dinner i dun understand y u ppl jus cant make my life easier u all r always not satisfied with wat i done i m human being nt god even god make mistakes y cant i i jus want sum1 to dote me love me but u ppl jus make me like a fool a idiolt a useless person when i help or do sumtin.... im unhappy at home at his hse i wonder wat is hse make of??? shouldnt tat be warm n a place to rest??? or is it jus bricks.... tere r ppl living in it yet it is so cold so empty so lost so lonely.... i get tired each n everyday i go sch i get stress i m nt welcome wherever i go i wonder y do u gif birth to me i wonder y u r my bf when u all dun gif a damn??? y r u all doing this to me???
i dreamt about you and me5:39 PM.
utterly disappointed... u break ur promises twice when i break my promise u scold me... but when u did u jus simply ignore and dont even apologise... the first time someone told he is gonna fetch me i was so happy excited eagerly waiting jus when i rch te destination u was not tere i tot u might be late but when i called u, u said u was at home.... disappointment was tere u said today u will be coming i told myself nah u wun be able to make it... n its true u overslept u called this time not even a single apology i act as if it doesnt matter while walking to ur hse i was thinkin y did i believe u in te first place u get upset when i break promise even though it was a small one i apologise for lots of time... u break twice n nt a single sorry.... wasnt it unfair?? on the phone u said u dun wish to move alright but when i reach u was watching drama i make the effort to jus meet u n wat u did was making my heart break... u make me feel as if im nt important ur drama is important... i charged my psp n when u went off logged into my facebook without talking to u psp was charged around 2 bars le i packed my bag n went off u didnt even notice... forgot to take my mp3 asked ur sis to help me take she actually told u i go liao ur response is "is it i dunu leh" at tat moment i was thinkin of leaving n other days then collect from u... she told me y do i always wait for u to fell aslp then i walk alone n went off??? my thinkin is before u slp u knew i was tere so u will feel more secure ba i guess slping alone is scary.... then she scolded u y do u always let me leave te hse alone.... i heard tat i was almost going to cry i control u came out n drag me in.... u ask wat happen i didnt wan to tell u coz i scare i will cry as i dun wan to.... lying in ur arms u close ur eyes fell aslp my tears jus keep flowing but u didnt notice i was lying so near yet u never noe how i feel nv saw my tears i wonder how u did tat.... ur arms r jus like my hse from outside tere is everything but actually its empty.... i guess my heart jus cant detect any warmness from tis world le ba.... maybe i change and u didnt or u change i didnt maybe we both change without noticing... maybe i m no longer te 1 u saw b4 in te past.... emptiness have overcome everything....
when u told ur dad u r sending me home i saw his face he look damn piss off i thought tis is wat a guy should do at least btw i didnt call u to send me all the way to wdl i jus let u send me to yew tee mrt station nia m i wrong?? lookin at his face i question myself whether m i right should i continue n ignore te others opinion i start questioning whether do u even deserve me or do i deserve to have u!!
i start to realise how fragile i m compare to the last time i got to be back again....
gonna save up to 2k asap!!!
i dreamt about you and me8:04 PM.
i dreamt about you and me1:17 AM.
love is like on a swing there is high and low, love taste like chocolates, there is bitter and sweet chocolates. dark chocolates is bitter when you're trying to mend what is about to end, sweet chocolates are the procedures, when things goes right its just feel like this world was stopping for that single seconds, staying loving and strong. in the end, both of our hearts know that we need each other, and we love each other for who they are. but when the time to spilt you will actually discover that the time the world wouldn't stop for you just because you feel happy to be with him or her.. at that moment of time, time just ticking away every seconds every minutes. just take it for an investment, there's no rite or wrong in a relationship. what was meant to be will always be even though it haven't arrive at your doorstep..
i dreamt about you and me12:33 AM.
