utterly disappointed... u break ur promises twice when i break my promise u scold me... but when u did u jus simply ignore and dont even apologise... the first time someone told he is gonna fetch me i was so happy excited eagerly waiting jus when i rch te destination u was not tere i tot u might be late but when i called u, u said u was at home.... disappointment was tere u said today u will be coming i told myself nah u wun be able to make it... n its true u overslept u called this time not even a single apology i act as if it doesnt matter while walking to ur hse i was thinkin y did i believe u in te first place u get upset when i break promise even though it was a small one i apologise for lots of time... u break twice n nt a single sorry.... wasnt it unfair?? on the phone u said u dun wish to move alright but when i reach u was watching drama i make the effort to jus meet u n wat u did was making my heart break... u make me feel as if im nt important ur drama is important... i charged my psp n when u went off logged into my facebook without talking to u psp was charged around 2 bars le i packed my bag n went off u didnt even notice... forgot to take my mp3 asked ur sis to help me take she actually told u i go liao ur response is "is it i dunu leh" at tat moment i was thinkin of leaving n other days then collect from u... she told me y do i always wait for u to fell aslp then i walk alone n went off??? my thinkin is before u slp u knew i was tere so u will feel more secure ba i guess slping alone is scary.... then she scolded u y do u always let me leave te hse alone.... i heard tat i was almost going to cry i control u came out n drag me in.... u ask wat happen i didnt wan to tell u coz i scare i will cry as i dun wan to.... lying in ur arms u close ur eyes fell aslp my tears jus keep flowing but u didnt notice i was lying so near yet u never noe how i feel nv saw my tears i wonder how u did tat.... ur arms r jus like my hse from outside tere is everything but actually its empty.... i guess my heart jus cant detect any warmness from tis world le ba.... maybe i change and u didnt or u change i didnt maybe we both change without noticing... maybe i m no longer te 1 u saw b4 in te past.... emptiness have overcome everything....
when u told ur dad u r sending me home i saw his face he look damn piss off i thought tis is wat a guy should do at least btw i didnt call u to send me all the way to wdl i jus let u send me to yew tee mrt station nia m i wrong?? lookin at his face i question myself whether m i right should i continue n ignore te others opinion i start questioning whether do u even deserve me or do i deserve to have u!!
i start to realise how fragile i m compare to the last time i got to be back again....
gonna save up to 2k asap!!!
i dreamt about you and me8:04 PM.
