this happen a few months ago i guess forgot when is tat... tot of typing it coz was like not updating it so long... then dunno wat to say also haha...
never knew that u would do things this way, u let me go many times i tried to mend it with all my might at least i felt tat i did!!! if u ever noticed i never said break up ever not even once trying my best to hold on to this relationship, protect u with all my best. But end up wat i get is u hate me... i wasn't sad at tat moment i was mad damn mad!!
if protecting u was my mistake i hope i nv protect u in te first place!!! after the quarrel, nt tokin to u bout 1 week waiting for u to call back!! but u didnt so decided to end tis tell u i wanted a breakup u said up to me!! mum was happy!! well i was happy too!!! dunno y i felt relieved!!! discuss with huili bout it she said up to me... so smsed him to tell him....
tot of te day tat he wan to come fetch me haha... he said he was inside the bus i was kinda happy!! finally he did it then he took the wrong bus, called him but get scolded i really wonder y did i get scolded for??? i was alr disappointed at tat time then tis happened again well guess we shouldnt b tgt at te first place!! u told me after te 13 yr old gal reject u then u tell me whether can we b tgt at tat tim i was thinkin of nt goin to stead with u anymore!!!
haha huili scolded u "serve you right" n u came to ur sense tot u were changing but things really dun get better huh!! i guess u wont rmb... hmm was telling perry tat day bout tis he scolded me omg... now then i find hw stupid i m!! haha....
hmm continue...
stead wif perry de few weeks later saw u at jurong east was with perry (my lao gong now!!) after saw u... u called many times but a few was missed call so i call back but afterwards i dun feel like calling back coz i was with my lao gong dun wan him to feel insecure....
(well all my frens who noe me and cz found out i find a new bf was shocked they nv expect tat i will so fast get a new bf hmm!! haha...)
at night he leave a msg in my voicemail... call me to listen went to listen n felt disappointment again though it is touching but wun be as touch as last time le time has changed!! u called and said u wan to talk things out well i wan to hang up but perry said no... so cont toking dun wan to run away anymore!! te first time i get so fed up get so angry get so upset and crying screaming infront of sum1 in te public too!!!
u said u get fed up with me when i called u at night when u r in te camp without any topic to talk to u... its really true i really dunno wat to say to u!!! not a single word or topic to start so always ask te regular stuff!!!.... u say y dun tell u bout sch life seriously even i haf i wouldnt wan to bother u with small little things which is not important n make u frustrated bout tat!!! mayb caring for u is wrong too... argh wan to hang up then perry snatch te phone and talk to him... (phone back to me again..... haha)
then we tok bout all last time things y do u wait till now then dig out all this useless things i dun want to quarrel with u but since u wan to dig out so i dig out all lo let u say lo if u wan it>>> fast forward... i think is draggy...
his sister call me say wan go out shopping n tat was like exam weeks te nex few days will b like my exams alr.... hmm she say wan meet at wdl so i tot would be ok so i wait her at wdl i said i can only go awhile as i have to go library revise my work!!! so rch wdl call her she say still at yew tee so she call me wait her tere so i went... before going to yew tee i was like on te phone with her she was like talking shit senseless things to me making me so frustrated!!! she keep telling me to give his brother a chance i was like keep telling her "u should noe hw ur bro treat me no way im going back!!!" what makes me even madder is what she said to me!!! she say "give my brother one more chance to let him show to u tat he has change afterall u with this new guy not very long also ma... just one week will do..." keep repeating... again again and again.... wats all this about??
so tat 1 week wat r we going to do.... most impotant is wat m i??? GF FOR RENTAL ma???? come on im not tat type of gal... but wat she said is true... "if u want a breakup make it clearer tell him face to face..." well i do agree with tat.... now im showing my temper le..... when i rch yew tee she said she is going out to meet her bf.... WOW what was tat for.... like a PLOT or TRAP is it??? so i went to his hse wanted to talk things out!!!
he said he wanted to tell me something!! alright i said "faster say watever u want to say n i wan to go le my lao gong is waiting for me!!!" i did sms perry tat i m going to his hse!!! as i dun wan him to worry neither do i wan to lie to him!!!... so i wait he went to get sumtin he came in with a wooden thing i dunno wats tat call!!! but its for like if ur plates is very hot u put tat so tat it doesnt hurt ur table.... tat type of things!! u kneel on it well i was surprise but not heartache i felt funny coz too dramatic i tot i will nv come over tis type of things!!! i told u this i knew i will hurt u i use to protect u but kindness wasnt paid well so i guess being cruel is wat i can gif at tat moment for U....
i said "im not like last time anymore... tat type of gal tat i will gif up everything for u le!! i give up too much n i felt tat its not worth it anymore... dont tell me tat ur mum will accept me or wat i DUN WAN TO HEAR ANY OF THAT BULLSHIT!! we are not getting anywhere.... so stop this alright...."
u said u will change..... u said tat once before i gave u te chance but it seems like u did not change at all.... still te same temper, te same attitude exactly like last time!!! so i assume tat tis tim will be te same... there are alot of guys out tere in this world still got other guys not u only!! u call me to break up wif perry saying tat hes not te right guy then may i ask r u?? ask for another month to show tat u change so after tat wat m i going to do??
keep toking about this topic for so long in te end he gave up i walk off walou my library revision end liao lo!!! hmm my lao gong wait at wdl for so long lo!!! he mux be real worry... well rch wdl saw him felt te aura same like tat night one te one tat he snatches my phone at tat tim!!! i was scare at tat time but then i believe tat my decision was right first time i saw a guy worry tat i will go until like tat haha... so kawaii neh....
haha went for a movie afterwards actually did we hmmm i think we did!!!
i was appreciating wat i have now as i started off as a maid instead of a princess but now i m a princess right now!! =) much more cheerful n happy right now =) he is te best guy i ever met i believe!!!
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