today went to work thought it will be fun but it is fucking tiring.... the fucking partners are using me then they go slack la the boss is also another cb kia damn irritating la... but i still think that this job is quite good i guess i will continue work... left hand like handicap liao....
friends is important once in my life... nobody loves to be alone nor do i... but who make the decisions who make the world ugly is nobody but humans... sometimes i told my lao gong i wish to go back to the past but come to think of it... going back is to let everything replay again... if i want to go back i wish i can make a difference but that is unrealistic... remember someone i really love to attend his lesson in my sec sch when he say i am disappointed in u at that moment i feel like crying heard miss tan said that to someone in our class forgot who make me remember that sentence haha.... disappointed is just me... people always disappointed in me huh haha... real friends listen to friends trouble huh... come to think of it when ever i wanted to say my trouble nobody seems to be listening haha.... even my mother she say talk to her talk to her... when ever i wanted to try she just say yours is small matter... tell me next time or change the topic to something that is funny or irrelevant... try to tell my friend i really don't know how to start but they are not interested too... haha i bottle up my feelings but it seems like i can't kick that habit of mine away haha...
i dreamt about you and me9:19 PM.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
unable to talk since friday hai sore throat lol its been so long ever since i have that haha.... hopefully i will be able to recover before monday if not i will be like adzhar haha... which i don't want!!! can't talk on the phone agony.... messaging make me sick even more tired of pressing hai.....
went to hong kong on december 12 that was a nice trip i love it i think hong kong might be better than japan afterall.... but i guess if they have snow there it will be perfect haha.... well i love that place more than singapore!!! that place is definately the best!!! =) went to disneyland and ocean park..... their ocean park sure make me wanna stay there longer but time is limited hai... hope that i can fo until school reopen before 1 day.... rollar coaster everything over there is definately wonderful we shift hotels to hotels but i enjoy it!!! haha
i dreamt about you and me10:09 AM.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
TAYLOR MOMSEN SAYS: YOU CAN'T FACE THE WORLD IF YOU ARE NOT BEING YOU...
BUT that is total NONSENSE cause being yourself is just what the world don't want to see...
i use to be a girl whose tolerance is super high follow people as i do not have my own opinions but then people tell me to be myself and don't always follow others when i started having my own opinions people start saying me change i really don't understand humans!!! you called me to change and i change for the better you people just simply cannot accept it... in that case why ask me change if there is not a need... i am not a doll which you can change the places or how they pose in just 5 mins it takes time and feelings for me to do so... you people don't even care how others think when u all change for the better or worse so... just may i ask... why is there a need for me to change to the type you all like instead of me feeling good?? i am feeling good right now not just for some opinions therefore i need to change back... i changed because everyone told me so and i think its good but now you all disagree that as you all feel that is just not the first person you met... i am curious who are you to me?? i change as and when i like i do not need opinions anymore... all i need is advice!! not advice about my characters is advice when something is useful come on... you know... if my words offend you people i am sorry... just think what make the new cailing today if it wasn't you people the new me wouldn't have come to a state that is.... like now!!! the one you hate... the one you don't seem to understand... the one that is not the first cailing... the one that you feel strange or awkward with think about it before saying that i have changed.... friends , families etc wanted me to change here i am the CHANGED one and here you deny my existence... hahaha
i dreamt about you and me10:25 PM.
Monday, January 18, 2010
i am sick and tired of te old me friends are useless to me now they used me as a tools i believe i can act like them one day why must it always be me the one that get hurt nah thats old stories new stories began new me!!!
come on face te facts cailing u r a nobody just be a nobody and u will not get hurt stick to yourself and families they are the one who is going to be by your side!!!! sick and tired of nice words everybody think negatively u will be happy too!!! or rather positively....
u will be all right, nothing will happen, im sure they understand nah bull shit!!!
no more fairytales turning 20 be true to yourself at least once!!! wahahaha
i dreamt about you and me8:16 PM.
i agree what perry said totally!!! ronnie r u trying to threaten han wat kind of blacklist u have in ur hands?? wat is the fun about?? would u like to try our fun too?? who are you exactly what kind of TREATMENT you can give to them u are not a principle with power!! u r JUST a STUDENT!! its her post wat ever we post is our rights.. u got no rights to tell us off wat r u insult police?? wat kind of sense is that if we say she fail and she get affected and fail WOW i tell people to die tomorrow how come they are not affected?? this ain't fairytale this world is not all about positive!!! there is negative go and tell her she will pass without studying i shall wait and see she will or not affected by your words!!! people tried and failed we do give them positive comments people laying around doing nothing and failed who the FUCK will give them positive comments!! if u don't want her to get INSULT, HURT etc... tell her not to post something that give us the chances to INSULT and AFFECT her life!!! what is call the right time we aren't fortune tellers we do not know what is right time and wrong time always!!! if we do why bother studying!!!
how in the hell are u so sure we are not thinking before we post anything?? come on if she can't take jokes just tell the whole class and no one will even bother to say anything!!! nothing goes our own way there are people who say things you like to hear and there are people who don't too!!! if you only love to hear nice things sorry you are in the wrong world!! you are dragging it too far we are not talking about families don't drag them in as and when you like!!
you are the one who have no rights to say anything or be her friend!!! right now you are lying to her how nice this world is.... tell me how long u can defend her she have to stand up on her own one day gain her own confidence are you going to stay with her in the rest of her life?? if not tell me, how are you going to protect her till she know how ugly the world is?? if these little thing she can't accept how are you so sure she will be able to handle rest of her life by herself?? she is not BABY anymore you ain't BABYSITTER too....
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i dreamt about you and me8:05 PM.
no one in the world,
could ever find me.
lost in the middle of.
nowhere.
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how in the hell are u so sure we are not thinking before we post anything?? come on if she can't take jokes just tell the whole class and no one will even bother to say anything!!! nothing goes our own way there are people who say things you like to hear and there are people who don't too!!! if you only love to hear nice things sorry you are in the wrong world!! you are dragging it too far we are not talking about families don't drag them in as and when you like!!
you are the one who have no rights to say anything or be her friend!!! right now you are lying to her how nice this world is.... tell me how long u can defend her she have to stand up on her own one day gain her own confidence are you going to stay with her in the rest of her life?? if not tell me, how are you going to protect her till she know how ugly the world is?? if these little thing she can't accept how are you so sure she will be able to handle rest of her life by herself?? she is not BABY anymore you ain't BABYSITTER too....