feel better somehow...

older post said nobody listen to me not included huili she listen to me most of the time it just that i do not noe how to speak it out when i talk to lu i do not know where to start first different school liao so i say also no use same goes to s.... sec talk to her she will never listen its always her n her only.... i was never involved.... maybe i have not change much i just being more selfish for the first time put myself in the center of attention... hoping for a guy that love me dote me n he is here so being selfish.... im sorry for those that i have ps.... but this is cailing first time feel that in her whole life she is important she is being noticed... i guess apologized isnt enough!!! i asked u all out too... accompany u all more than u all accompany me i think i feel i realise if i didnt then maybe im not the old cailing ba.... this include everyone i treat good too like meiling, huili, luo, shi qi, cheng zhang n others... i noe u all see le will angry but if u all dunno then u all will feel i m referring u n get angry with me.... but i hope to let u all noe that feeling even u all r going to b angry!!!

being selfish recently ad and al ask me to help him i dont think there is a need first u r just a nobody to me i dont think when i need help u will help me lo.... was thinking about last time when i help others even they call me to help them print or what i will help cause i do not want others to hate or dislike me but now go ahead cause u all r not the first.... was thinking of my ex and some past i helped u so much but u used me as a tool isnt it?? maybe at first but so what the fact u used me before doesnt change!!!!

was thinking m i a bitch or what to say all this afterall i m the one willing to help but not blaming others now just think through....

i guess if m saw this she will be angry or pissed off i dunno but this is the gap that is between us.... i dunno she got use me or not but im sure she does when things turn bad with l didnt u come to me?? when things turn good u went back isnt it.... y i didnt talk to u much is this reason of course i got no rights to say anything about u because i might did that same thing before....

"if i got gossip u all so what u people also gossip about me what some just right in front even i noe i deserve it i still feel sad so nobody care.... gossip all u want if u all want say it infront then i welcome u!!! if i m fake a bitch a backstabber or whatever u all can think of so?? aren't u all the same fake bitch an ass or what u all never gossip others n still be fren with them act as if nothing happen meh?? if i ps u all didnt u all ps me??" own feelings did not refer to anyone got to say it clearly!!

just called zheng hui to fuck off say wrong number... who do u think u r stop contacting me when u just look through ur contact list i pei u last time even i dont feel like going out... but u also dun do the same thing i can do the same too... if i m last one u wish to contact dun contact la.... i dun need that neither do i need ur accompany..