i feel so lonely now so lonely so lost do not know what to do if i did not encourage myself to fall for u i will not lose so many things lose the independence i built up lose the balance of my life again i fall in love again mummy taught me to not treat him so gd but at the same time treat him gd i guess we r going to break up if im going to break up i hope i will never fall in love again... i was alone u all found me in the lost world teach me how to smile now after i have learnt u all abandon me.... everyone is abandoning me i feel so lost so lonely crying right now.... if it was not perry i wouldnt know what is a princess lives.... i hope i never knew.... treating people gd is so difficult treating one gd i always gain nothing but scolding.... scolding is always what i got thats y i want to change... but changes do make myself look stupid useless anyway cailing was never useful.... if i knew all this from the start i rather die of loneliness.... just wish cailing could die now n disappear.... was cutting vegetables feel like stabbing myself .... i m so pathetic... i just merely want a simple love i m not imagining things but lao gong keep saying i am.... u r worried even u noe i m fine thanks lao gong im glad in the phone how i wish i could just tell u keep worrying dont stop but this request is simply too much u r so tired cant take it anymore im happy so glad so glad.... im laughing with tears words get blury cant be seen.... help my mum get scolded help my grandma get scolded just keep getting scolded if u all wan cailing to disappear pls inform me i wish i can disappear too.... lao gong playing tennis!!! he didnt sms me too i wasnt angry.... y y scold me y angry with me y u people just dun understand cailing is crazy she gone mad while typing she is sad devastated she cant see whats gd alr all she can see is bad bad negative negatives.... cailing is gone she never exist in the past she do not want to live in the present she was not here all along!!!
total bullshit stop lying to myself i dun give a damn....
i dreamt about you and me4:25 PM.
