Damn suai la I lose my ez link card fuck sia how unlucky can I be today was kind of sad coz I've been doing lots of housework recently so tiring n da yi Ma come also even worse n now ez link card lost hai was searching whole day ask them all dunno I Noe it's my fault but still it seems that no one make an effort to help when they lost something I helped them find but when I need help it seems that I wasn't worth any help when u all need me then do all those kind of things when I need help I don't see u people around so I say treat people good it's like fucking no use la....
Recently been thinking my house is not like a house to me it's more like a lodge a place to stay for the time being.... N I've decided not to show any more feelings n stop the rebellious actions... It's like no one care no one notice I tired they also tired for what... Ah gu say when I 21 years old he gonna open chalet for me i told him nobody would ever come last time my mum open one for me too only me n my family relatives n my mum friends why waste the money??? I m sick n tired of celebrating birthday hoping people will come but none came.... Nobody free to come only me thinking of how to celebrate for others but none ever surprise me.... I quit being a clown spending money n time for the best of u all hoping someone would be happy for what I've done for them but it's more torturing when the day come nobody care to give a surprise maybe I'm too demanding.... As humans are greedy they always want more good is never enough best is the new average perfect is the standard!!!
Last time I always hope that manga stories might happen in my life but afterall it was all dreams how can it be true where I'm living in the real world I told someone there is true friends in this world before but now I m not believing it I don't even want to believe in my family member anymore.... My mum always scold me say I always treat friends better than family cause friends is a new thing for me I've never tried but even I threw it away to try to put family first I'm tired too tired to even fight back.... U said that because u wan me to help u in the chores not family... I kind of regret for doing that....!! People always reject me because of their family but I always help them tag along with them if they need help I hope to be the first but then it seems like I m just a loner when I need help I dunno who to find only 1 to 2 person is there for me n I'm glad but looking at others sometimes I think is it because is my fault or is others I have no idea!!!!
i dreamt about you and me1:25 AM.
