I understand what I should do n shouldn't but obviously I just get scolded for something I should have known and still do that really puzzle me a lot!!!! I bring my dog and my brother down just because I'm hungry and it's already 1 plus and I haven't ate a single thing!!!! But when I'm down it was not drizzling!!! I was thinking nobody at home so I bring him and dog down so it will save my trip down n up at the same time look after him well that was obviously wrong it's true that I shouldn't let him drenched but it was out of no choice but it seems like my brain is just not working well!!!! I should have bring an umbrella with me even it is bot raining!!!! I think is because he is not my son and I'm just a sister I truly don't know how to take care of a kid but I'm trying my best!!! But it was obviously not spotted by u adults that I'm just a 20 years old who don't have a kid right at the moment!!!! And do not know how to handle them!!!!! Last time I do think for others a lot but now I've changed and it's true that I'm like a monster a bitch now and I do not know how to turn back to who I m before!!!! Things have changed during the first broke up with that bastard I became wary of others n stopped being kind!!! Things gone worse when that bitch left me n accuse I left her instead!!!!! The new me went further when lg told me what to do!!!! And finally I realize after all this I think I've transformed into the old Huili haha.... It seems like I'm lost just do not know how or what to do anymore
i dreamt about you and me5:24 PM.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
deja vu
i dreamt about you and me10:02 PM.
Monday, August 09, 2010
My jealousy have increase too when u r looking at upskirt or grace or whoever it is I get jealous I really suspect that u n grace got something ...
Haha I don't feel like typing anymore
That day when u say if I'm like ur mum u told me to fuck off if I'm fat u will bring me to slimming centre I was hurt n speechless well hugging me n all doesn't heal me at all even I'm fat or ugly u chosen me I didn't force u to u made the choice n woo me u just simply can't throw me away like a used tissue I feel no security in this relationship it's like I've to worry about getting fat not as irritating as ur mum it feels like I've to change n u don't
That day when u say I don't know anything about u don't assume I thought I know u better than anyone it seems like I'm wrong to think that way
Jj ask me for blog link I dunno y he wants it because we r not close at all I said i will give it to u but I think through maybe it's Huili asked u to ask me so I actually ignore ur message
i dreamt about you and me1:05 AM.
Recently it's abit torturing been quarreling like there's no tomorrow he became so sensitive it's getting hard to communicate with him!!! It's like talk awhile chat awhile I end up being the one that is angry at all times lol.... Thursday night have this motivation or so call I insist watching a movie and it's already 9pm and we need to wake up at 5.30 tomorrow so it's kind of a no no situation but I wonder y I insist that day I was actually thinking since sat sun mon will be working so I really wanted to watch a movie with him and was thinking we've been quarreling maybe watch a movie will have some topic to talk about but in the end I was reprimanded for no common sense no time management I think I'm the only 1 managing or it's just me overreact??
That day my parents were asking whether m I going to marry him I said yes but after that I start to think about it!!! Will it come true?? Is it possible when it's at this point of time?? I dunno I have this feeling u r going to leave I'm just paranoid I just cant trust guys anymore after one lesson I get so worried if I fall in it will I be able to come out again... Maybe that is y u feel that I treat u bad I know I really love u I just don't want to show it out I dunno is it that I've change or is it u!!!! I just simply feel that u have changed so much I really dunno how to talk to u or even tell u ur words is so similar to that bastard that I cant believe I'm dating different guy!!!
It's like honeymoon period is over full moon don't always come after eating u don't feel that u r full!!!
U said u will bring me back home no matter what happen or how tired u r but today u ended ur work at 7 u did not come n fetch when I asked y u explain and said that u r tired n come here to bring me back home n go back n ask me do u get it!!! Do u get it this word is so unexpected I don't expect u to come if u r tired but what u say is just lie I guess it's just like him give me hope n crash it like I'm a black ant
i dreamt about you and me12:38 AM.
no one in the world,
could ever find me.
lost in the middle of.
nowhere.
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