I understand what I should do n shouldn't but obviously I just get scolded for something I should have known and still do that really puzzle me a lot!!!! I bring my dog and my brother down just because I'm hungry and it's already 1 plus and I haven't ate a single thing!!!! But when I'm down it was not drizzling!!! I was thinking nobody at home so I bring him and dog down so it will save my trip down n up at the same time look after him well that was obviously wrong it's true that I shouldn't let him drenched but it was out of no choice but it seems like my brain is just not working well!!!! I should have bring an umbrella with me even it is bot raining!!!! I think is because he is not my son and I'm just a sister I truly don't know how to take care of a kid but I'm trying my best!!! But it was obviously not spotted by u adults that I'm just a 20 years old who don't have a kid right at the moment!!!! And do not know how to handle them!!!!! Last time I do think for others a lot but now I've changed and it's true that I'm like a monster a bitch now and I do not know how to turn back to who I m before!!!! Things have changed during the first broke up with that bastard I became wary of others n stopped being kind!!! Things gone worse when that bitch left me n accuse I left her instead!!!!! The new me went further when lg told me what to do!!!! And finally I realize after all this I think I've transformed into the old Huili haha.... It seems like I'm lost just do not know how or what to do anymore
i dreamt about you and me5:24 PM.
