Well alot of things happened and I do not know what to do at times well I find that adults are selfish they do what they like and they wanted us to obey... I didn't want to oppose them I love them in fact but sometimes it makes me wonder whether do they love me understand me or even know me... I found my world my own world a new world that I'm going to explore which everyone have already did maybe there are some people haven't but I believed most does!!! I'm already 20 turning 21 and I wish to make decisions there are times i really wish to make it.... But adults thinks that my decision don't make sense but when I say "anything" u people get fed up with me!!! I don't know what I can do or don't!!!!! I believed I have trained myself very well to have not much emotions but 1 laugh just keep laughing smiling they will never find out how I feel even towards others I start to apply this rules haha!!!! Nobody know when I'm angry upset really happy sometimes I'm really angry but the emotion were hidden!!!! Sometimes I wanted to voice out but the courage wasn't big enough to break through and even I voiced out I believe nobody will even take notice of it.... In this family I'm not me I am just simply a portrait of who they want me to be... Obedient, doing house chores I suspect I came from philipines or Indonesia I felt like a maid instead of a daughter !! I prefer to stay at perry house even i do chores I do it on my own account... I'm not doing any bad things u know where I m u know who I'm with even I'm staying at his house so what!!! We are going to marry someday and I have decided and nothing is going to change so why r u all objecting me staying over u all don't miss me at all!!! U all don't miss me u all just fucking wanted me to do the chores seriously I have done enough for this house I do all chores since p6 I iron wash plates sweep mop floor... Till now... Then I rebel.. I rebel for a reason I think I have done enough and it is time to pass down I have 2 sister both in sec they r old enough to do some chores already could u all just give me a break?? I took care of them and I'm tired it is time to let them take care of wei wei too!!! 2 ppl take care of 1 last time I one ppl take care of 2 I think it is fair enough!!! Im going to graduate I seriously need time to do project but to u ppl I don't make sense even it is a lie have u ever think y he doesnt want to come the questions u asked the nosiness of the house we can't concentrate u don't scold wei wei it is always our fault always say ah Ma pamper ah gu isnt what u r doing right Now call pampering and leading him to a good life call spoilt brat?? I don't know afterall adults never wrong
i dreamt about you and me10:32 PM.
